As I begin to feel lost...

As I begin to feel lost today, when someone told me that a recent graduate from SIM, RMIT secured an interview at Cathay Marketing. I was hit. I applied that months ago, and I saw them posting again and again every these few months. It implies that they have not got the right person yet, but I was also not given the chance for the first meet up. I thought what was going wrong, it must have been some flaws in my resume. And I assume, its due to my past experience... People from agencies had called me a few times, and the first question is, "Hi, are you interested to go back to Insurance line again?" After a firm "No" I presented across, they sounded disappointed and replied "ok , thanks". The line went dead next. Why was I desserted? Is it so hard for me to get out of sales oriented jobs? I want a change! And when I tried to grab someone to hear out my frustrations and troubles in this area, no one could offer their time for me... How sad can that be...

As I walked into devastation, I heard a voice within saying," Stop that Huixian. Stop thinking like this. Talk to me then." I think its Father Lord trying to reach out for me. Immediately, I reminded myself, ya, when all humans fail, I still have Him, Father Lord to talk to. He is the only one that is unchanging, since the past, present and in the future. He is always the same!

"Father, I have been out of job for quite a long time. With an upcoming trip nearing, my job hunting chances are lowered. With no outstanding background in my resume, my chances are lowered even further. However, I know you are always there. There for me. I dont know what lies ahead of me. But you have declared its good. For you have went ahead for me. I know your plans are to prosper me. And all negativities are just devil's tricks to pull me down, creating a distance between you and me. But your promise to me is this: “Instead of your shame you shall have double honor”. God wants to give me a double-portion blessing for every trouble I go through! I thank you for that! For reminding me to read the Daily Devotional on NCC's website. It has renewed my faith and I know I am at a higher place. Thank you Lord!"