Friday, October 28, 2011
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Can I have some grace?
I am really depressed these days.
The first thing that came to my mind after I woke up for work is "Sigh.. I am going to be scolded again"
Yes. I am always being scolded by my senior.
If my another new colleague was around, the scolding I bear will be lesser.
Thats not a healthy routine isnt it?
People are not patient with me, they scold and scold and scold. You may ask why? Well, its a norm working in a retail bank. Moreover, I am dealing with services, hence, at times, I feel more like working in a complaint department.
Often, I thought, when I was in DBS, I was not so unpopular, not being treated like nothing, like a dirt. When I was schooling, I also do have friends that are males or females.
Unfortunately, now that I am in Citibank, I dont have a close colleague in service department. I only have friends from the sales department.
I miss my best close ex- colleague, Ruby.
That day, we met at our common friend's wedding. We didnt manage to catch up alot. But I will always remember the words she gave me before we part, "I miss you a lot." in chinese. And she is a girl who seldom express her feelings so randomly.
These words have been ringing in my mind, and I kept asking myself where or will there be such a similar person in my office? Where is she?
I used to do almost everything with Ruby, my ex colleague, but now I cant find such person anymore and all I got are scoldings everyday. Am I really such a lousy person? If so, then why do I still have so many good people who treats me well all along?
Can I have more grace?
The first thing that came to my mind after I woke up for work is "Sigh.. I am going to be scolded again"
Yes. I am always being scolded by my senior.
If my another new colleague was around, the scolding I bear will be lesser.
Thats not a healthy routine isnt it?
People are not patient with me, they scold and scold and scold. You may ask why? Well, its a norm working in a retail bank. Moreover, I am dealing with services, hence, at times, I feel more like working in a complaint department.
Often, I thought, when I was in DBS, I was not so unpopular, not being treated like nothing, like a dirt. When I was schooling, I also do have friends that are males or females.
Unfortunately, now that I am in Citibank, I dont have a close colleague in service department. I only have friends from the sales department.
I miss my best close ex- colleague, Ruby.
That day, we met at our common friend's wedding. We didnt manage to catch up alot. But I will always remember the words she gave me before we part, "I miss you a lot." in chinese. And she is a girl who seldom express her feelings so randomly.
These words have been ringing in my mind, and I kept asking myself where or will there be such a similar person in my office? Where is she?
I used to do almost everything with Ruby, my ex colleague, but now I cant find such person anymore and all I got are scoldings everyday. Am I really such a lousy person? If so, then why do I still have so many good people who treats me well all along?
Can I have more grace?
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